Her.words.

The new move

2007-08-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

Oh heloo! =)

I was contemplating on closing Blogspot for good.
But then again, too many memories was written in this space.

Hence, I was contemplating on importing all my posts to Wordpress.
But then again, I can't be bothered to tag each and evryone of my past entries so that it wouldn't mess up my new ones.

So, I guess this space is staying for awhile.

And the biggest disadvantage of moving....I can't have a blardy tagboard!
Bleurghh...that kinda sucks.
I never was a fan of Comment Box anyways.
=(

Despite that, I'm slowly learning and loving the new space.
I shall see ya guys there...? Yes?
But hey, I might just come back here sometime.

Have a great Work week ya'll.

Can stop askin already!

2007-08-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

2007-08-14T16:10:00.000+08:00

I have a thousand and one thoughts running thru my mind.

But I've been staring at the screen for a good 15 mins and no words can flow out of my brain to my fingers.

I blog to release all pent up frustration. But I guess that don't work anymore.

I wonder what the heck is going on with me.

School starts in September. I supposed thats the only one thing that I look forward to in life right now.

At the very least I know once I get that precious paper, I can finally stand on my own 2 feet.
Finally.

2007-08-10T11:50:00.001+08:00

And its half-day for me!
Hurrah...home in half hour baby. =p

Happy working ya'll...

And girls, 3 more weeks to KL!
Can hardly wait. =)

Hello again??

2007-08-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

Hehee..I know I know..I did say I've moved.
Well, I have.
But, I can't help updating here too.

So now, I update 2 blogs with somewhat different entries.
Sungguh free nak mampos kan aku??
=p

Anyways, today is my lazy day...so was yesterday.
But today, it seems I have more things to clear cos the Secretary is on leave till next week.
So now not only do I have the VP on my ass I have the Boss too!
(harhar...i just realised how wrong that sentence sounds. LOL)

Ohh, look!!

That smiley face was more like a smirk lah.
Well you see, it has been ages since we last shared a conversation or even meet.
That dude up there is an old flame. Someone I casually dated "for the fun of it"
And when he said "everyday of my life I do", I can't help but shudder.
The answer for the question why is even worse.
=p

Well, I know I used to be a sucker for "sweet nothings" sweettie, but that was old news.
Sorry hun, that don't really work for me anymore.
*pat on the back*

Now I know why D.Bf hates my old flames.
Cos he is totally not like any of them.
Harhar.

Oh well, my past rocks though I am not exactly proud of the things I did.
Hey now, everyone has skeletons in the closet right?
*winks*

6 more hrs to go.
Hostel 2...here we come!

Ps: Zoo n durians both sounds good. =(

2007-08-06T09:55:00.000+08:00

Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens.

A good marriage must be created.

In marriage the little things are the big things.

It is never being too old to hold hands.

It is remembering to say "I Love You" at least once a day.

It is never going to sleep angry.

It is at no time taking the other for granted.

It is a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal.
It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.

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I won't know for sure if he is the right partner when the time comes.
But for all its worth, I know I want to be the right one.
=)

Ohh, he is starting to do the things I never thought he'd do.
He even asked me to teach him .
Insya allah, I still have what it takes.
" Alhamdulillah, kalau gitu baru boleh jadi menantu mak"
Those words still ring in my ears and for once I know Mum cares.

While that area of my life have actually improved a whole lot.

But the other aspects of my life is going downhill.

Why can't it ever be a balance equilibrium?
Blahh.

" our love is a journey; starting at forever and ending at never..."

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Timecheck: 15.43

How apt.
I came across this story while blog hopping.
And it brought tears to my eyes.
Of Love & Poverty - The Story

2007-08-03T10:05:00.000+08:00

Pardon for the lack of entries now and in time to come.

No..I haven't been busy.
Not at all.

I have a cup of hot milo on my desk, just done with painting my nails, the book "Sleeping Around - Secrets of a Sexual Adventures" by Catherine Townsend laying around somewhere on my desk and I have YouTube loading Supernatural.

The office is quiet cos the guys have went off to Italy and K.L.
And, I am so blardy free the past few days cos the old man of the company been sick.

So why have I not been blogging?

Well people, thats because I've moved.
=p

2007-08-02T11:00:00.000+08:00

Nak tgk nie!

Tapi biler ehh? Ahahahaaaa...
I'm broke like never before.
Cheebs.

2007-07-31T11:32:00.000+08:00

To You & You,

Thank You.
=)

Love,
Me & Him

2007-07-30T08:59:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

I am half-expecting you to come by and see what I have written and if I'm going to run my mouth and vent my anger and frustration here for all to read.

But I wont. Like you see here, this is my personal thoughts for you to read.

I do know how it feels like to have your name or your loved one at stake.
Trust me, I do.
It is never a good feeling to see someone you love on the line.
Being over-protective comes naturally and with that you don't realize you hurt someone else along the way.

We're both of the same sign and I do know our personality and traits may clash.
My mum used to say, we always argue about things because we're both born under the same sign.
But i beg to differ, I do believe my mum and I get along very well and we do have our moments. More than when we're biting on each other's tails.
Hence you & I, we may not be close, but there were times I see myself in You and I understand perfectly why.
Cos my dear, we're born only days apart despite the age gap.

I do want you to know that I will never jeopardize your loved one. If I do have that hatred and intention, I would have done that a long time ago.
Please do know that I sincerely care for each and everyone in that family and treat them like my own.
I've been thru too much for him and I guess Ive grown numb from all the blows.

Shit happens in life but I believe it could have been avoided.
Me & Him, have nobody to blame but us.
It would have been nice somewhere along the line, people could have ask how we're coping and how everything is going on.
Its only when things go wrong do people care. They start pointing fingers and not a single word of concern was uttered.
But of cos, that how it is.
Thats how life is.
I'm pretty sure you know how it goes.
Afterall, you have so much more life experiences than me.

He have spoken to me about what he intends to do tmrw.
We're putting aside all our pride and ego, with face looking down...we accepted his help.
Thus, adding more to what we have already owe you.

But rest assured, I will personally work to pay off every single cent.
You guys have paid so much back then.
And i still do remember how our relationship soured and tense.
I've seen how things got better and I do want it to remain that way.
So, please let it remain so.
Blood runs thicker than water.
Family ties are sacred and I do hope when I'm finally a part of you guys, we can all close this chapter and move on.
With a better meaning in life and putting away the past.
Insya allah.

So my dear You, I apologize if I got on your nerves that day.
Guess we're both defending that single person we put our everything to.
And a simple thank you won't ever be enough for what you have graciously agreed.
But please do give me all the benefit of your doubt that I will do what I can to settle everthing that is now owing.

I won't bother explaining nor defending myself or him.
There's only 6 of us, no point arguing and making things worse.
Again, thank you for everything.
And I pray for your well-being and mine too.
May God repay your kindness is more ways than one.
=)

With all that being said, I'll put that behind.
And I sure hope you'll be able to do that too.

With love from a "sister",
Ayu

The weather

2007-07-27T11:27:00.000+08:00

The weather have been such a good one to be lazying around in bed.
With a cuppa hot tea, a good book in one hand while in the warm embrace of the man I love.
That'll be oh-so-perfect.

BUT NO!

I'm stuck here in the office facing the blardy PC with the aircon blasting like there's no tomorrow.

I have my tanktop underneath my tunic - cos I do not want half my boobs coming out.
I even have my pantyhose underneath my pants - cos I couldn't find my ankle ones and I hate wearing heels without them.
And I also have my blazer on!
ALL of that and I'm still freezing.

If this continues till Puasa, I seriouslly do not know how I'm going to stand the coldness.
I must start shopping at Cold Wear for my work clothes!
Bah~!

The boss is out for his medical appointment.
And now Im sleepy from the lunch at Sanur.
*yawn*

Oh people...TGIF!
Yayyness.

Minah belo...I cant wait to see you later!
Tiff, here we come!
Harhar.

Randomness

2007-07-26T04:00:00.000+08:00

SOME pics I took while we were stopping by at Desaru Fruit & Animal Farm.

I never knew mum's favourite fruit grows like this!
And its a family of a cactus.

And that plant bears a fruit that look like this,

Yup, that's a dragonfuit in case you haven't figure that out already.

And i swear these 2 animal know what a freaking camera does!

HarHar.

Man, I love fieldtrips!

I so want to go back there.
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People, I miss this! =(

Rock city @ Patong beach, Phuket.
That place rocks lah.

And this.
Something about this picture I like.

Don't ask me what about it that i like.
I dont know.
Maybe its like you're walking towards something and leaving everything behind.
Geddit? no?

We were here.
Yup, we were.

=)
I like this too.
Very....ermmm...well yah...ya know.

Feets from Left: Makcik, Mama, D.Bf, U.Rasid, Kental, Kak Ya & Moi.

Cafe Del Mar @ Phuket.

The married one & The Dating one.

I have more pictures somewhere online.
But I cant remember which online album I load them up to.
Pffftt...
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I just took this few mins ago cos it looks stupid.

You see, each time I look down on my keyboard, I see this:

Yup, that cow with a leaf on its mouth staring back at me.
Cute!
And stupid looking.

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Damn right Garfield!!
Heh.

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See, how more random can I get.

Im freezing!!!!!!

2007-07-25T13:48:00.000+08:00

I'm mad at something but I can't point a finger at what exactly is the cause of my fury.

Is it because I'm still thinking at how selfish they can be about his future?

Or is it because I can't seem to get my MSN Live to work.

Or maybe I'm just pissed at the fact that I can't do anything right today.

Or, could it be I just heard of her "good news", knowing it could have been mine?

Whatever it is, it is starting to get on my nerves and I don't like it.

I tried to walk it off during lunch. Window shopping at Taka and buying pointless stuff for the office.
But its still nagging at the back of my head.

Sighh, I hope it stops cause I have things to do lahh...

Urghh!!!
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Ohh, who the heck buys a $371 heel?
With a design so similar like the one I bought frm Bugis Street.
Pelik.

I don't know if I can or will spend that much on a shoe.
But then again, you'll nvr know kan?
=p

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2007-07-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

The ayam penyet was super good.
I love the chicken!
Sungguh sedap.
If I want to get fat-ER, I can eat that everyday!

Anyways, I feel so "belo" just now.
This office is like a playground to me.
So many crooks and cranny I have yet to figure out in such a small space.
Someone was asking where the water inlet is, and that got me stumped for a good coupla mins while searching high and low for that blardy door.
It didnt occur to me these Italians would want perfection in the details of beauty.
The freakin inlet was hidden behind a wall!
Tssk, How am I to know that kan??
Wahlau!

Lights do NOT look like lights at all! I had to ask what it was.
And the phone looks like something from an outerspace technology. I thought it was just a decorative element added to the meeting room.
Selengeh!
Also, I have yet to figure out how the heck to switch on some lights cos I do not know where the blardy switches are.
And I still do not know how to operate some of their equipments cos I was too afraid to figure it out myself.
For fear of spoiling them and having to work for free the next couple of months.
Sighh, that cute dude must have thought Im stupid.
*Smacks forehead*

Few more hours till Im off.
I should pay a visit to Tiff.
Heh, its just a few floors dwn.
=p

This entry is so pointless I know.
Im just ranting cos I just feel I'm not THAT stupid lorr!

So....

2007-07-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

I thought I'd miss this *points below*

My workstation in Regus.

But hey, I can't complain to this *points below* can I?

My workstation in Finmeccanica.
Everything's wireless. Its so darn cool.
(And cold!)

Pardon the obvious difference in amount of work.
It is afterall my first day of work rightt!
Heh.

So how was the first day?
Other than being around some hot Italian guys..*ahem*
All is well.
And I'm hoping it'll go on in time to come.

The people here are so nice.
And it rocks when you know there isn't any stupid office politics around.
I hardly see the boss, apart from hearing his voice.
And of cos with the occasional "can you help me with this and that", the rest of the staff which is only 6 at the moment, minds their own business.
Great!

Oh, it is BAD having a shopping haven right beneath your feet.
I was walking around aimlessly after being running errands for the boss and I'm surprised at how much I can possibly spend (if I were to have the cash) in such a short amount of time!
This is not good lah ok!

I have a lunch "date" with the boss's driver tmrw.
Ayam Penyet he said?
Yummy.

This may afterall be a great start to something big.
No regrets ayu.
None at all.
=)

Last Night

2007-07-22T10:40:00.000+08:00

I love everything about last night.
From the cuddles to the kisses to the laughters to the stupid meaningless conversation we shared.

For that moment in time, all our fears and woes doesn't seem to matter anymore.

I love you everyday, luv. =)

The Kill

2007-07-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

"I'm proud of you, you're not like them"
Yes baby, I'm not like them.
Never will.

Oh well, I totally CANNOT wait for next week!
*winks to boyfie*
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"I may feign ignorance. But I am far from naive.

I may by quiet, but I am far from stupid.

I may lie dormant, but I am far from quiescent.

Just so you know."

A fellow blogger put these words at its best.
Somehow or rather, I cant help but feel as if those words are speaking for me.

2007-07-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

Its starts Monday.
Hurrahhh.... =)

Beautiful Lie

2007-07-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of answering the same question.
I dont know if I'm ok for sure.
I guess I have to be.
I don't know how to "talk things out" anymore either.
Cos I don't know what else is there to say.

I suppose I'm not used to being selfish and thinking only for myself.
How can I possibly do that when he is already a big part of my life.
(Be it in a good way or not)
People say you have a choice.
But what if that choice leaves you with leaving the man you love?
Is that really a choice you can make?

He is my future and forever he will be.
I know he is not the best for me but in my eyes and heart he is.
Please dont judge him just because of what he put me through.
It is afterall a choice I made. To stay put right by his side.
Its just that, there is only so much I can take at times.
I'm bound to let it all out when the going gets tough but that doesn't mean I'm giving up.

I do wish my life can be much better.
I do ask HIM why so many time during my sleepless nights.
But I learnt thats not how you should lead your life.
I'm tired of wishing and questioning.
I never do get anything out of it.
But what I know for sure, life has its ups and downs.
And at the end of all this, we'll still be together, fingers intertwined.
We'll then look back and say..."we've made this far"
God Willing.

I cant wait to start work and go back to school.
I'm not sayin Life's good cos I'm not going to live in denial and paint a beautiful picture.
Right now, all I can say is...I'll be fine.

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

So beautiful, beautiful...

Happy Birthday To You!

2007-07-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

Someone finally turned 21! =)
And We choose to be the last one to wish her despite being the closest.
Heh.

And so here goes...

Dearest adek,
We shall keep this pretty simple and short.
Minus all the boring-same-every-year well wishes.

Happy 21st my dear.
We love you lots.
Another belated celebration coming up!
And yes, your birthday present too.
We promise you'll get THAT!

Till then, go bask in your new found adulthood.
(Not that it's any different!)

*kisskiss and smacks bottom*

- Rafiee & Ayu =)

The Remedy

2007-07-17T15:54:00.000+08:00

I don't want to worry my life away.

Will it ever end?

2007-07-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

"I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till 4 in the morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right"

How many times do I have to let these tears roll down my cheeks till it all comes to an end?

I don't know for how long can I help him out.
I don't know how long more I can hold on to this sliver of hope.
I don't know if I can stand another phone call from the debt collectors.
I don't know how much more can I borrow or beg from the people who care.
I don't know if I'll ever see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I've grown numb - numb from all the on goings of my little pathetic life.

I miss my old self.
Care-free with nothing to hold me down.
Happy as can be and with lotsa love and joy surrounding me.

But now its as if God is playing a cruel joke out of my life.
But why??
Why is this all happening?
Why did you let our path cross?

Should one day I decide enough is enough, and i finally find the guts to walk away from it all, will someone take my hand and walk with me?
Afterall, it has always been him.
Only him.

God, hear my plea and take it all away.
Get me through this cos I don't ever want to give up on him and us.
Especially us.

"All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
And all I know is
You got to give me everything
And nothing less cause you know I give you all of me"

The things that Irks me Part 2.

2007-07-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

You know, I find it really silly to have this silent competition amongst people.
Be it between friends, colleagues or even worse Family.

Who has the higher salary, who has the higher title at work, who has better luck and the stupid list goes on.

I just don't get it!
What blardy sense of satisfaction do these people get from knowing that the rest of us cant be any better than what they think of themselves.
You get me?

Does it makes you feel great that the rest can't earn as much as you?
Or be as materialistic as you?
Or that they can't beat your "record"?
In short, just better.
Pffttt, like what the hell??

I have low tolerance for these people.
I cannot stand being looked-down upon just because I'm a kid.
I certainly cannot stand when people start comparing.
And for sure, I hate it when people start giving stupid senseless remarks to make them feel good about themselves. After knowing they're still better .

Grow up!
Duit tak bawak mati lah.
Even if ada beribu dalam tangan, sampai bila bertahan?

So much for "be happy for someone else's rezeki"
Har!

Disclaimer: This entry is purely a way for me to vent my anger and irritation. If you think this has got something to do with you, please don't flatter yourself.
But then again kan, i might just be talking about YOU! Hee.

(And i don't know why I'm stating a disclaimer!)

On a super bright side, off to Desaru tmrw!! WeEEeEee...
And to my people (you know who you are!), good luck tomorrow!!
Happy standing and ~~losing~~ winning money! KheKheKhe

Kisses....=)

freedom of speech

2007-07-13T13:00:00.000+08:00

I have SO many things on my mind.
Stuff that I cant let out.

I think I'll make a private domain to pen my own personal thoughts.
Without having to worry about people terase or this and that person reading what I have to say.

Whatever happen to freedom of speech.

Blast from the past

2007-07-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

If you read today's New Paper....the front page news was like a blast from the past.
The reason being, my sister when through the exact same ordeal.
The big difference between them is that, Kakak made it.
Alive.

I can never imagine how difficult it is for Abg Shah when the doctor told him they might have to remove her womb.
I can't put myself in my parent's shoes, knowing one of their daughters is in danger and yet there is nothing they can do about it.
It was a difficult time for the family.

I still remember...when she asked to meet me, I nearly broke into tears seeing her in pain and drips by the side of her neck.
We have never been close. In fact our sisterly bond was almost ruined when she came back from Perth.
But like they said, " Air dicincang tak akan putus".

And now, her lil tyke have grown up to be a real smart beautiful little girl.
Something she can hold to as a gift from God, after the long ordeal of her labour.

Life is short.
Too short.

Here again.

2007-07-11T14:34:00.001+08:00

So im here again at Intel. Cold and bored!! Bt lotsa eye candy tho..hee.

I cnt wait to start work nxt wk! I just hope the boss will hurry back to singapore already.

Ohh..and what a way to end my last week! Off to desaru with the whole family this weekend. That'll be truckload of fun.

And another good news! I got the scholarship frm that school! 2 years exemption to the last year! Which means i only have a year to my Degree! Hurrah...!
D.bf is joining me in that school too! After the bad experience for myself n the startling news we heard abt school im attending..i guess its bEst we jump ship. Hahaa.

A great start to something bigger. I cnt thank HIM enough. =)

I know this is utterly random.
I cant help but blog from the mobile when the blardy laptop is down!
Lambat nye 530!

Blardy hell!

2007-07-08T11:11:00.001+08:00

You know what irks me the most???
Self-fucking-centred people!
The kind who thinks only for themselves and expect the rest to bow down and listen.
My god..wake up and smell the coffee!
The world does not revolve around you alone.
Sickening! Urghh...

And you know what else irks me?
Freeloaders.
The kind who menyusahkan orang.

Maybe I'm pms-ing or my life just decides to be a bitch.
Either way, I'm pissed.

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Updated 14:06

Great...just great.
I broke a nail.
*walks off screaming*

I did it.

2007-07-06T12:48:00.000+08:00

I've made my decision.

Thank you to everybody who was willing to give their 2 cents worth.
It helped alot.
Ultimately, it is still up to me.

I had a lump in my throat while talking to Adek and Ayah.
And Mum was being...well a mum. =)
Family knows best...and Im glad mine still have my back.

Thanks LJ! The first piece of advise I got...
And Kak Ya, the last one before I made that phone call which just further strenghtens my decision. Trust me, I needed that!

And love, thanks for saying its time I think for myself.
We'll get by...slowly yet surely.

So, for those who dont already know.....

I heed your advise.
I went with my future.
And I pray and hope..for the first time in my entire life, I did the right thing.
God help me.

So excuse me while I take breather.
Heehee

Lovestoned

2007-07-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Im at lost.
At one time, I was sending out resumes. Hoping for something somewhere.
And now I'm racking my brain at which to choose.
Im indecisive. Im fickle-minded.
I hate decision-making.

On one side, I'll be earning so much more.
The things I'll be doing and learning will be of great help in the future.
(I'll be a secretary to 1 or 2 Managers and assisting with HR stuff)
Yet after the contract ends, I will still just be a Receptionist despite doing so much more than just that.
Moreover, its a lil bit too far off and after 2 rounds of interview I realised I have nowhere near to have lunch.

On the other hand, being a perm staff of that Italian MNC means better benefits and bonuses for me.
And I know I can grow and be so much more when the opportunity arises.
With faith, I'll have the chance to climb the corporate ladder.
However, I'll be earning much lesser.
(With the office right smack in the middle of Orchard road means, NOT good for my wallet! =p)

Ohh, for the record the Italian guy wasn't McDreamy or McSteamy.
Though he's enough for me to have thoughts while sitting in his impressive office.
Speaking of which, they had Italian architects specially flown down just to design the office.
Pffttt...but it was sure as hell very chic.

So, if I were to go for the money, the decision is pretty obvious.
But on the hind sight, I do want a place for me to grow; have a career path.
So how now brown cow?

Here I am finishing this blog entry and yet still can't make up my mind.
What would you do if you were me?
Money or Future?

Wrecked.

2007-07-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

"How do you know how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love, or too much to ask of someone?
When is it all just too much for us to bear?"

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I love Garfield.
And this comic strip is merely a tongue in cheek humor for myself.
Fat already!

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Updated: 1820.

I saw this logo on their website, made me giggle nervously when told Im meeting them tmrw.

Oh dear.
To think they use to be a client I was handling back in Regus.
And, Im meeting an Italian man tmrw too!
Man, I hope he's not McSteamy or McDreamy.
Hee.

Wokay, wish me luck will ya?
Wee...=)

A Rojak entry

2007-07-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

Guess who decides to convert to Islam.

HIM!

This is a mug shoot of Michael Jackson.
It looks funny.
"Last night, on the eve of child-molestation charges being filed against him, Michael Jackson converted to Islam, reports the New York Post."

Surprise..surprise.

And I didnt know Eve is a Muslim too.
A non practicing one.
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I learned a new word today.

nin·com·poop
Hee..it even sounds cute.
(Yesss, I do know what it means.)
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And I came across this while bloghopping aimlessly.
And I must say, no matter how insulting it may be..there is a certain truth to it.
I'm not going to divulge the name of the building he was referring to, for fear of people accidentally terase you know...

"...Okay so now I must remember to bring belacan everyday to work cause I only saw CHInese and Angmohs people just now. The only Malay guy there was (as Farhana pointed out) the guy who was repairing the cables. You know la, when you work in an atas place like this your nose will grow very big, even though you're an only a pathetic intern. Malay always like that one. So must sniff the belacan every now and then..."

Touché!
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"If incest is a sin then what the fuck does that make Adam and Eve?"
errr...can someone blow his fcuking brains out?
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In ancient Japan, public contests were held to see who in a town could fart the loudest and longest. Winners were awarded many prizes and received great recognition.
- from Interestingfacts.org

I wonder how the crowd was.
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Rojak kan?
Cos im honestly bored out of my big ass lah can but too lazy to head out.
Im such a pig.

And I love Garfield. =D

Will there be a good news?

2007-07-02T17:36:00.000+08:00

Ohh, I got a call from that company.
They're willing to offer me more than what Regus was paying. Now thats good.
They even told me what I'll be doing. Which is very interesting.
But...will I get it?
Thats the big question.

On a completely different note, He/She gave me some serious goosebumps.
Cute tak? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA.....
I hope He/She wont find me.
Mati aku.

More Than Meets The Eye

2007-07-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yes luv, I was wrong.
It was more than meets the eye.
=p

This movie *points below* is by far the best movie I have ever watched.
Put a smile on my face, a tear in my eye and a skip of an heartbeat.
A round of applause from the crowd puts an end to a great movie.

2nd time luv? Tee Hee

On a completely different note...the GST cash is out yeah?
How fast its gone.
But Im sure its being put to great use...D Bf is starting school in Sept. =)
Ohh, and he got the job that Ayah recommended.
Syukur Alhamdullilah.
Tho he won't be earning as much as we would hope, I'm just glad we can now slowly pay off all our debts and start saving for Ko Lanta.
Yes adek, we'll save! =/

"Freedom is the right of all sentient beings."
- Optimus Prime

Dah Update!

2007-06-28T16:52:00.000+08:00

People say we look alike.

She was even mistaken as my daughter countless times.
This smart pampered kid is the lil tyke..my niece.
Adore her like she's my own. =)

Yesss....I'm wearing it!
What? I didnt have anything to wear..moreover its comfy ok!
=p

And Si Kutip is getting fatter!!

He is now the big bully in the house.
Tak padan kechik ok!
He chase after our feet and bites on anything within his reach.
So adorable.
HarHar

And yes yes...

Pictures up soooooonnnnnn.
I'm Fiiinnaaalllyyyyy finishing editing the pictures and putting them up together larh.

Weekends coming yeah.
They're like any other day now.
HurHur.

Ok Ms Roihan, updated.

My Thoughts

2007-06-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

I could feel my tears welling up when I read her post.
And she is just another stranger whose life stories she chose to expose to the whole world.
And that life, aint perfect. Not at all.

I have immense respect for her strength.
Something I dont think I'd have when Im faced with such predicaments.
But somehow, I feel like I have been where she have been.

I know how it feels like to have just $10 in your bank.
And with that amount, Im torn to pay for our food, his ciggies or the diesel for his van.

To know how a slice of cheesecake was as affordable as a packet of Gardenia Chocolate Roll. But back then , we could not even afford the latter.

I know how it feels to be neck high in debts. And know how it feels to work your ass off for that salary and only ended up having to finish it up paying the bills.

I also know how it feels to beg and borrow. Im very thankful for having such wonderful parents.
Speaking of which, I dont know if I can ever repay them.

And yet, I still dont understand why Im still here.

We still have debts to clear.
We still do not have thousands not to mention hundreds in our bank account.
But we'll get by.
Im worried for his current situation cos I know I can never find the courage nor strength should we go back to where we started.
I can only pray and hope, he'll get what he wanted.
Insya Allah.

As for me, I hope I get that phonecall tomorrow.
Else, I'll just settle with that offer.

And soon after, comes your school and the rest of our plan comes later yah?
God Willing. =)

Ps: I know, I know....Phuket pics not up yet. =p

Romantic Fatalism

2007-06-16T19:13:00.000+08:00

"You Call It Madness, But I Call It Love"

The time when it starts aching again

2007-06-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

I called in sick today.
That pain in the tummy is back. This time unbearable.
And I choose not wanting to know why.

The bruise on my calf is getting bigger too.
Some how or rather, it doesnt hurt one bit.
Though the embarassement it caused me is worse.
Yeah, I lost my footing after being pushed around while boarding the train.
And the left leg just so decides to land itself in the gap between the platform.
I have nightmares that night.
The train left the platform with my left leg in between.
Harhar..funny eh yoie?

Im going to nurse my aching tummy now.
The boyfriend is still snoring completely ~~ignoring~~ unaware of my whining.
Uwaaa....

I'm Back.

2007-06-04T16:49:00.000+08:00

Back home to join the rat-race tmrw.
Pictures and a proper update up soonest possible.

Till then...love and let die

Off.we.go!

2007-05-31T06:18:00.001+08:00

Off.to.phuket.again! See.ya.guys.in.4.days...
Be.good.nw..

" Vacation Starts Tomorrow"

2007-05-30T14:18:00.000+08:00

No more numbers on the ticker!!
*Hurrah*

Feeling.Under.The.Weather

2007-05-29T13:18:00.000+08:00

The flu bug caught up with me.
This sucks.

And I hope Little Miss Red just decides to be generously kind for being late.
I wouldn't want to deal with her during the whole trip in Phuket lah can?

Last night was nothing but a waste of my time.
At times I just want to walk away and never look back.
Cos I know when I do, I will never see you there.
It has always been that way.
Always.

"I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me"

When.The.Background.Gone.Missing

2007-05-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

I had to look for another skin since the previous one decides to play Hide & Seek.

And today, is just another lazy day.
My life is starting to be on a standstill.

This..

Is.....
.....NOT

..Goodd...!

3 more days people!!

Back.To.The.Primitive

2007-05-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

I love weddings.
Each time I tag along my parents to one, I always fantasize about how mine will be like.
Its like a kid with her own fantasy world.

And today, I attended a wedding in Kampung Aceh, JB.
Relatives from the maternal side was there.
And I, for one absolutely love family gatherings.
=)

Oh, the bride look so radiant.
In fact beaming with joy, it was surprising to know it was a matchmake wedding and both parties DON'T know each other at all.
Weird. Very weird.

Oh well, the wedding & food was nice.
The heat was not.
I simply do not understand why the heat in Malaysia is ridiculously hotter than Singapore.
Tak bleh tahan.
Even my orange cooling top from Island Shop disappoint me. =/

Imma hit the sack real soon.
My head is throbbing from the heat and I'm sleepy.

Night world......

ps: That Vacation ticker rocks my socks. Heee...

I know who won.....

2007-05-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

And so...SHE won this season's American Idol.

Like whats new?!

How boring.

I'll just watch tonight's show for Green Day, Kelly Clarkson and Blake's beat-boxing then....

That ought to be fun...minus the part where SHE won and starts tearing and be all fake.

Bahh....=p

Sweet.Escape

2007-05-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

I'll be back at work much faster than I expected.

Guess I'm ready....

Or am i?

Hmmm...

All the wayyyyyy.....

2007-05-21T13:06:00.000+08:00

Its Monday and I'm NOT groaning!!
Not working can be so much fun afterall.
Not until Im broke and being desperately bored.
Poor BF takes the heat.
=p

So, weekend was fab!
If standing makes you lose calories, I certainly lose awhole lot!
Man, thats a feat! Standing and losing money at the same time.
wakakakaaa...not funny!

10 more days!!
All the wayyyy.....right baby?
LOL.

Ok, off for lunch.
Happy working people!

The part when boredom kicks in

2007-05-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

Look what I decided to do when boredom kicks in.

Dont ask me how or why I look like the people up there.
Or even why Shane of Westlife is doing up there.
I Dont Know.
HarHar.

Ok, im going to have so much fun with this.
Did a pic of Lil Runt...and Amitabh Bachchan came up!!
Wakakakakakakakakakakakaaaa.....

*skips off*

Its Done.

2007-05-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

And so, whats the story now?

I said goodbye to Regus today.
And no...No tears streaming down my cheeks this time.

Im glad my Dad have my back.
He knows I won't stoop THAT low.
Im elated to leave and put an end to it all...but a part of me feels that i was wrongly accused and I took the easiest way out.

God is great.
May the truth be told and God bless their soul.

and to the managers, You can kiss my ass!

Nak tdo larh!

2007-05-16T00:13:00.001+08:00

I cant sleep larh..apart frm the fever im having and the countless thoughts making a big hoo haa in my head..He..*points pic above* keeps biting my toe!!
Ohh, that cute one is a new addition to our family. =)
And he's still nameless. Harhar.
I better try and catch some sleep man..tmrw is dooms day. Bah~!
Nyte world!

Whats the story now?

2007-05-15T12:41:00.000+08:00

I'm back at work.
After a long hiatus.

Feels partly strange and certainly NOT excited.
I just cant wait to get the hell out of here.
Honestly, I couldnt care less about the ongoings in the office anymore.
Its not worth it.
Came back to awhole lot of shitty office politics, which Im not a big fan of.
And of cos everything and anything seems wrong.
Now I cant wait to say goodbye to Regus and hello to one of Fortune top 100 best company to work for. KheKhe.

'Nuff about work.
I have been contemplating on putting my degree on hold.
Its getting very expensive and the amount I hafta pay to UOL (which is in pounds) is getting too much.
Sobsob.
Well, the letter of acceptance is valid for 2 years.
So..hopefully all will be well.
Cross Fingers.

And loovveeee....Heee.
Never been happier. =)

I cant blardy wait to be on that plane to Phuket already.
Once back...its a whole brand new life mann..Yeehaaa.
Now excuse me while i clear my 100 over emails in my inbox.
Laterz!

2007-05-10T08:42:00.000+08:00

Life is a rollercoaster ride.
Apparently mine is broken.

Damn.

2007-05-08T14:56:00.000+08:00

She just have to do it!!!

Sure i was down and out...and she found a way to make me laugh...

By doing THIS!!

I knw..i knw. I look super kental nk mampos.
With that ugly specs and that hair-do.
My God..what was my mum thinking!!

But then again..i grew up mighty fine kan kan kan...lol

So, my dear kental GF....thank you so much for that B-E-A-U-tifoolll post.
You watch ur back...I am so going to go thru my old stuff and come up with something good...
HarHar.

Love ya too roiroi.
*hugs*

Bittersweet

2007-05-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

I have a couple of good news for myself.

But im not the slightest happy.

I hope it rains today and every drop turns to a hundred dollar bill.

Blahh...i feel like shit.

F.U.C.K!

2007-05-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

Ya know what, I guess there won't be another Phuket trip afterall!!

Im upset and disappointed can?!

Urghh!!
This is exactly why I prefer doing things on my own.
My own decision..my own cash and my own damn responsibility.

Sickening.

I was right last night!!!
IT will NEVER happen if things keep on going at this rate!
There is certainly no light at the end of the tunnel.
It was just my silly happy thots playing in my mind all along.
Fuck lah...

I wanna cry can?

A new lease of life.

2007-05-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

How long have I not been here. =/

Well, the death of the young lady who worked her life off was certainly shocking.
It made me think that no amount of money can actually make you happy.
I use to believe money makes the world go round, people to turn ugly and now..death?
How weird.
The irony.
You earn to survive....and now apparently people ended up being dead.
Woahh...life is certainly a conniving bitch.

And with that, I made a decision.
A decision that I pray will bring a change to this small little humble life of mine.
I want to have a career path, not just a job.
Hopefully life will be a little easy on me this time.
*cross fingers*

Now, I just cant blardy wait for Phuket,
What...another 27 days?!!!

Monday.Blues

2007-04-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

Friday.
Sakae Sushi Marina & Wild Hogs
Kak Ya & Hubbz, D.Bf & Me.

Saturday.
Fish & Co Glass House
Lil runt, Faisal, D.Bf & Me.

Heh. Trust me, i am much happier than i look.
And...I love my new specs. Khekhe.

I love love love my weekends.
Tho short, it was well spent.
With great food and company...
Bliss.
Nothing more I can ask for. =)

And..tmrw is fiiinnaallllyyyyy May!!
Before I know it, I'll be on the plane to Phuket. Again.
Yayyness.

Heh. Im terribly broke already too.
But that didnt stop me from spending a wee bit for myself.
Time to put in new stuff to my wishlist. *winkz*
Another reason to window shop luvvv....=p

And she.....

is so friggin adorable.

2007-04-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

Yayyness.
My specs is ready!
Off to collect it today.
Though that means I'll be even more broke than I already am.

Stupid Pay!! =(

And....I wanna catch a movie. Real Bad.
Anyone??
Its fridayyyyyy.....
Come ah Kak Ya! LOL

I am so looking forward to the weekends already.

Mr.Fly

2007-04-25T12:56:00.000+08:00

Mr Beautiful Eyes is 33.
He is so fly...LOL.

Ok, stopit! =p

God, talk to me?

2007-04-24T12:13:00.000+08:00

Dammit!!
They burst my small little happy bubble.
How now brown cow?!

I need a sign.
A big huge ass one for that matter.
Should I or should I not?

ARrgGghhHHh!!

Monday.Dont.Come

2007-04-21T17:03:00.000+08:00

I am NOT looking forward to Monday.
This is certainly not good.
=(

On a much brighter note,
Countdown ticker is up!!
Kak ya, thats for us to countdown till the days we're away from the shitloads at work ok?
June, come quick. 2 young ladies cant wait to bare their babats to the world already!!
Yayyness. Heh.

And, I cant keep my mind of this *points to pic below*!!
I cant afford it lah of cos.
But heck, its gorgeous.

Priced at $2700+.
*yikes*

Wookayyy, Im late to meet the D.Bf.
Till later days!

Come.Take.My.Hand.

2007-04-20T17:42:00.001+08:00

I am so glad its Saturday tmrw.
And certainly NOT looking forward to another work week.

Work has been nothing but a pain in the ass.
And I hate it.
Thank god for the other 2 ladies who kept me surviving.
Other than that, the work load is ridiculous.
Just to show that we are appreciated or recognition is given for our hardwork seems too much to ask for.
Buat salah ke tak buat salah ke tetap jadi salah. How true eh Nani.
So I dont know what is right and wrong anymore. Cos everything is.
Bahhh...
A pretentious biatch as your working buddy makes everything even worse.

I hate decision making and it is making me even more irritated.
Contemplating on certain issues and it brings nothing my headache.
=( Help?

Off to dinner with D.Bf later.
He'll take my hand and bring me faraway.
Only he can do the things he does.
I love you everyday.

Happy weekends!

The Irony

2007-04-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

I

Am

So

Sick

And

Tired

Of

This

Shithole

I'm

In.

Somebody pls help?

Urgh!

2007-04-18T14:51:00.000+08:00

Aku diam2 kau pijak kepala aku ehh!!

Takpe, U think age matters here? Not experience and title?
U obviously have no clue what you put yourself into young lady.

Cheebs. Bingit!!

And you on the other hand, why do we even bother to perform and make ourself a better staff when our mistakes are still in the picture???

Irritated!!! Takde mood ahhh...!!!

Enter various multi-language vulgarities here.

A Fairytale wedding

2007-04-17T14:30:00.000+08:00

Ok, Ame dear..I bloghop and chance upon pictures of the lady who received a whopping amount of 20K as her hantaran and the super-grand-nk-mampos block wedding and dinner at Fullerton.
It sure was a fairytale wedding. Everything was beautiful. The decor, the dais and even the food!
Wanna see? Heh

"Dier ada permata, berlian atau pearl? Ke tiga2?"
My Bf can super crude at times..but THAT just cracks me up.
Biarlah ehh...org tuh mampu.
The amount spent is enough to buy a car I heard.
WOW!

Looovveeeeee, I want a fairytale wedding too! Nyeahahahahhahaa

Seeing wedding pictures today makes me super happy giler.
Reading blog of preggy ladies makes me warm and fuzzy.
HmmmMmmm.......Something tk kena ah.
Main Game.

She's Next..=)

2007-04-16T10:58:00.000+08:00

And so, i found out she is indeed next. =)

So happy, dont ask me why.
Perhaps its because I have someone so dear alongside with me thru this new journey in life.
Heh. Mari lah kiter save samer2 yee!
Kau broke, aku lagik broke. Nyeahahahaa.

I received an sms from D.Bf once I reached the office this morning.
A sweet sweet sweet message.
Blissfully in love.
I have this stupid kambing smile while typing this out.
Stooopppp ittt ehhh ayu. =p

Other than that, work is sucky.
Nvr ending.
Shitloads of stuff to do.
Bahh...~!

June come quick??

p/s: Ame dear, im NOT getting married yet larhh..=)

2007-04-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

"Hear only the good stuff"

Been seeing that the whole day on telly today.
Makes me smile..=)

Client internal transfer today.
My fave buncha guys moving to my floor. yayyness.
One calls me darling..and another is a pain in the ass..the good kind. *winks*
HarHar.
Rian says Im sloowwwlllyyyy turning to an SPG.
Am so not lah ok.
Certainly NOT becoming HER!

Nearing the end of the day.
I just wanna rush home and laze in bed with the poor sick boyfriend.
Bliss.

2007-04-11T11:39:00.000+08:00

Some people are plain downright rude.

Tak faham aku!

Is it being absolutely stupidly childish or insecurites deep down is creeping in.

Whatever it is, ShE on the other hand is happy. Maybe happeir. And that Im sure.
Finland did you good ehh....like a lil bit of tender loving care. HarHar.

You're gorgeous babe.
Words are nothing right.
*hugs*

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"After Phuket, you will have to save the amount of money you spend on cab fares"
Bahhh...how trueee...!!
=(

To think I nearly lost her.
To have her back in my life, despite hardly meeting or even talk, is something i thank god everyday.

Love ya girlfren.
Much Much. Heh.

Rilla, me and who's next? you?? Bvlgari now? not Cartier?
*Mana satu you nak nie b...."
LOL

Love

2007-04-09T16:58:00.001+08:00

Many asked if he propose.
Well, he did.
=)

No more spending after Phuket he said.
And I whined.
Tell me, how ready am I.
Cos quite honestly, Im pretty unsure myself.

It is not the fact that im unsure of wanting to be with him.
With all my heart I do.
Im just unsure of the future.
The bills, and debts and money money money money.

We came a long way. We might not be together for donkey years but heck, the things we went thru speaks volume.
This is as raw as it gets.

There were times I wonder to myself why didnt I just walk away when things just got so bad.
When I know the future was so bleak and everything was just so wrong.
I know my parents hope I leave him for good.
But I cant.

My savings slowly depleted. Bills & debts I paid.
Even my precious birthday ring from my parents was gone.
Not to mention the lovely ring from my late grand-dad. That was all I have left to remind me of him.
And that too was taken away.
Oh, dont get me wrong.
He never once made me do what I did.
Neither did he not bother to do anything about his situation back then.
It was all downhill from where we begin.
Nothing to pull ourselves up.
I had to do what I think was right.
I answer for my own actions.

I was not brought up as a rich kid.
Oh no, my family is definitely not rich.
My dad hold 2 jobs back then. He earned it.
we stayed in a real comfy 5-room flat.
And we got everything and anything we asked for.
But we know money dont come easy.
We have to work hard.
And that I learn frm Dad.
When Kakak when to University in Perth.
Our lives took a turn.
Dad sold his bike and mom started to work.
However, there was still food on the table and we still got everythin and anything we asked for.
Our lives was simple yet fulfilling

Thus, it was difficult for me being in that situation with him.
Yes I complained. And yes I whined.
I was certainly not comfortable with not having what I want and need.
But I still stayed. Every night and day by his side.
Even if it means sleepless nights in the back of his van.
Even if it means another word war with mom.
Even if it means pulling myself out of my own comfort zone.

And then God answered my prayers.
Regus happened.
Earning a very comfortable pay for myself. And he finally got out from that shithole.
Even is it means doing something not many will be proud of doing.
Thank Allah SWT.

Life got a whole lot better now. Even if we're still struggling.
At least the debts got lesser and bills are paid.
And, Im starting to save even if it is just 70 bucks a month.

I have my thankfuls.
Like my parents who willingly open their arms in my dire need of help.
Like lil runt who gave me the comforting hug each time it was another word war with mom.
Like D.Bf. Word can never do justice to the things he did for me. Even when his life was filled with nothingness.
His love and patience so strong. Taught me the real value of life.
And of cos, fate, luck and Allah.

We're still struggling but at least our love for each other bring us thus far.
I can never guessed I would stay this long.
But I did. We did.

We have big dreams. Though money is an issue, I would do anything for it to happen.
D.bf wants to go back to school.
That Im proud to hear. To improve himself for me. For my sake. For our future.
I want to earn big. Give him a comfortable life. Give us a comfortable life.

Though the future seems uncertain at this point.
But at the very least, we're taking another step towards a new chapter.
Slowly but surely.
And god willing, life would just get better and better.
Putting an end to our struggles.
Insya allah.

I love you luv.
With all my heart.
Lets put an end to this chapter of our story and write a new one.
Lets end 2007 with a sweet ending.
And usher in 2008 with a brand new life.
We'll take small tiny baby steps till we're ready for that giant leap.
You are all I ever wanted.
I wanna grow old with you. =)

“I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out.”
- Roy Croft

The long weekend

2007-04-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

Thank god for the long weekends. It's been well spent.
Thanks luv! =)

Anyways,

I skipped the party with the other 3 Regus centres at Balaclava on Thursday night.
I gave the JB trip with the girls on Friday a miss too.

Instead, it was another movie date with D.Bf.
The Reaping was nice. But aint that great thoo.
Last night was short, simple and sweet.

He told me things I never thought I'll hear.
Deep down my heart leap for joy.
But somehow, a sense of insecurity for the future creeps in.

Despite that, I really wanted him to know that is all I ever wanted.
However, I cant find the right words to speak and we sat in the bus in silence.
In my heart I speak..." If only you knew how much I want our future..."
But that didnt escape from my lips either.

"Are you proposing luv"
TeeHee.
If so, where's my tiff?
=p

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And his mum just asked me.
Apparently, that cheeky BF of mine spoke to her about his plan prior to me!
Harhar.
Its soooooo blardy weird lah can.
Arrggghhhhh....how the heck do u deal with this.
Help?
Malu nyer aku.
Ape hal tah!!

In Random

2007-04-05T08:58:00.000+08:00

I have lots to clear before the much anticipated long weekend.

But

I cant seem to get my brain working.

I'm wondering to myself, why do people like to put something they know they cant live without on the line?

To take the risk and do the things they know is wrong.
It is really worth it?
Should one day they lose everything they once built and look up upon?

Its crazy. Yes it is.
But maybe, just maybe..what they think they have is not meant to be?
Like just another phase in life.
Just another love gone bad.

And, will I be so oblivious should D.Bf decides to cheat on me?
Would I be so dumb and numb to not realise it?
Does trust really exist?
How much should we trust?
Whole-heartedly? I dont think so.

I'm having a tug-of-war by myself.
Dont ask.

Life's a bitch and so am I.

And you, I miss you.

300

2007-04-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY watched 300! In the comfort of D.Bf's bed of cos. He relented in letting me have my choice of the movie last night. Heee

Truth be told..the graphics, the battle scenes, the blood & gore, the pride & honour, the sensual intimacy and of cos the beautiful scuplted body of the Spartans is amazing. In fact, the word amazing is an understatement.

Great movie.
And for someone who do not fancy epic battle movie that much...to sit thru the whole movie and paying attention to every single detail and scenes..speaks volume of the movie eyy?

I might just grab a book about the movie. Or maybe, I'll just watch it again tonight.
Forget Norbit shall we luv? =p

I cant wait for Friday alreadyyyyy.....bahh~!

2007-04-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

Life is great.
Minus the occasional shortfalls, all is good.
WeeeEEeeEeeeeEe....=)

2007-04-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

Today is just another day in hell with shitload of work to do and everything and anything seems wrong.
Cheebs.

On a much cheery note,
I have a date tonight with the bombshell.
Off to lil india..yayyness. =)

Ohh...12k is ALOT of money!!
That does not include marriage preparations!!
My cousin is krazie.
Thats the most logical explanation I can think off.
And I thought my uncle was out of his mind back thn when it was my sister's.
Tsk tsk tsk.

I like the Coach bag he gave. (note to self: LOVE kakak's Coach bag!! 25% disc I heard. wow.)
And the ring too.
Sumpah tuh belian besar nk mampos!

I wonder how mine will be like. Heh.
There is nothing wrong in dreaming lah kan...

Heyloo.Again

2007-03-29T13:56:00.001+08:00

Big bosses in town.
Bluerghh....
Nie tk boleh..tuh tk boleh!

That aside,

I'm sick of the happy post below. HarHar.
Hence, Im just updating for the sake of not seeing the bright red font of happyness each time I see my blog.
Not that Im NOT happy.
Geddit? Ok.

$570 for a wallet. Gorgeous.
I can get 20% disc. *winks to yoie*
Kau naakkk?
Or, $6450 Cartier ring is the choice?
LOL.

Ok, back to work.
Nie pun sembunyi2 hokayy...

2007-03-25T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'm A happy girl. =)

Yayyness.

Utopian.Dream

2007-03-23T10:38:00.000+08:00

Beautiful whispers leave one so far
Chain these hands of ageless struggle
Rid us of this beloved curse
An epic tale of deceit is given life once more on silver lips so spiteful
Her tongue screams for him
Rid us of this curse

2007-03-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

A day off tmrw. Yayyness.
Much needed.
Away frm the hustle bustle in the office.
Ahhh..bliss.

Anywhooo, saw a real nice brown wedge at Aldo. Cheap too. Comparing the prices of their heels..the wedge IS cheap.

BUT!

Its frigging 4 1/2 inch high lah!! Hw to walk!??
Seems like Im fine with my heels being that high but mcm klakar gitu when it comes to wedge. Cacat sak.

Give up ah. I'll just get their heels since they're having sale. Hah.

Teramat pointless I have a blardy wishlist.
I hardly buy the things I wish for.
The irony.

And, I think I'm beginning to lose my ~~mind~~ memory.
I can hardly remember if I reply to ppl's sms.
And even if I do, I cant remember what the heck I replied.
*shudder* Dont dare think whats happening to me.
Dating old dude is getting to me lah I think.
HarHar..love ya all the same luv. =)

Ohh, might be pushing our 2nd Phuket trip to early June instead of July.
Kak ya & ~~kental~~(tk glamour lah eh!! hehee) hubby heading there too.
So, we'll crash their party lahh...heee.
They have confirmed their trip thooo. Myself and BF..still pending reservation.
So, if all is well...I cant wait too. *giggle*

Korang org2 tua dpt duit in May ahhh!!!
I want too Mr President!
Pls?

Tak fair ahh!!! =p

*sulks*

Bedtime...I can wake up late tmrw!
Happy working ppl...
Boo Ya!

screams

2007-03-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

Today just reminded me why I friggin hate Mondays.
Cheebs.
I have not touch a single thing in my In-Tray and it just keeps piling up lah!
My to-do list is empty cos I have no clue what the heck I should be doing anymore.
Hence, I'm here blogging.
Knn!

AND....

I'm contemplating if we should go to Koh Samui or back to Phuket in July.
D Bf is so keen on going back there.
But I'm having 2nd thoughts. Bahh...
Flights and accomodation are pending reservations thoo..
=( Lost.

Emails to send out, clients to meet, invoices to check, quotations to source out....and the list continues.
I'm so close to throw everything off my desk and not do anything for the rest of this god-damn day.
Arrggghhh!

Heelllppp!!!

edit

Great just great, my travel agent just called.
June to October is the Monsoon Season.
RAIN!!!
Boo Hoo.
How now brown cow?!

Can this day get any worse?!

Randomness

2007-03-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

I love Anthony Green, his vocals is awesome! But I dont really like Circa Survive.
I love Saosin. But I HATE the vocals on their new songs. Super lembek nk mampos.
7 years kick ass!
AG, go back to Saosin puh-less? =(

Dont bother understanding the above if you dont have a clue to what im saying.

Anyways!

I hope I'll be well enough to enjoy my weekends.
I am badly in need of some great movie, dinner and company.

Ok, time to get my fat butt off the bed and cook my lunch.

2007-03-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

At home, sick. I really have tonnes to do at work but I can't bring myself out of bed this morning. It must be the infuriating long walk in the rain. =(
Don't ask.

The situation at work is scaring me. I really don't know if I can cope with the ongoings in the office. I'm praying real hard I can pull thru this. The fact remains they're merely testing my capabilities and god willing I'll prove them right.

I'm already pulling on my hair and stressing which task I should complete first. My to-do list is getting longer each day and every single one of it is urgent. Macam mana gitu?! Multi-tasking is one thing. To come up with 2 totally different report and figures is another ok! Sungguh tak masuk akal! Urgh.

But I know I'll get the hang of it. Its just in the matter of time. Till then, I'll just continue my hair pulling in the office. Tak botak..nasib.

And perhaps in time to come, another pay raise maybe? nyeahahahaa...=p

Ohh, on a totally different note, can someone pls tell me how on earth I can EASILY spend hundreds on shoes and clothes BUT its not as easy to put aside to SAVE?! Cheebs.
Life is not fair lah. =(

Nak nap. Buyin new shoes later. HarHar.
Stop it sak ayu!

weird

2007-03-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

Checked my statcounter - someone have been reading my blog religiously.
But thats beside the point....

How on earth did you get thru my archive?? *raise eyebrow*

Not that I have anything to hide lah..
But its just unnerving to know how someone have so much interest in whats going on in your life.

Ok, nk makan.
Yummy.

Looking at new specs today..yayyness.

Oh what a day

2007-03-12T12:53:00.000+08:00

Its a Monday and I have shitload of work to do.
Whats new.

5 more hrs...!
Someone pls help me....bahh

2007-03-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Tmrw is Monday alreadyyyy?? =(

Boo Hoo.

But heyy...going shopping with D.Bf's parents!
Yayyness.

This entry is so pointless.

2007-03-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

Have you ever feel like people just take you for granted?

Like they come to you ONLY bcos they have nobody else, or just to ramai2 kan org?
Ya noe, like seat fillers in the oscars or grammys?

At times I dont understand why I can be so patient and taking it all in.
Tho it seems obvious ppl do take my "anything goes" attitude for granted.

Oh well, I guess being nice and all doesnt pay huh?

Damn it.

Shoes krazy

2007-03-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

To imitate is a form of flattery. =)

That aside, after so long im wearing my fave pair of wedge today. And i realised its dying on me. Boo Hoo. My one and only!

So, I'm looking for a brown wedge. Preferably covered. *ahem..yoie..ahemm*
And my other wedges are all open toed. Urghh..I hate pedis. Its ticklish lahh.
And my heels are all 3 inch and above. Sakit kaki aku.
=(

Even after i trip and fall on my Guess Stilettos, tk serik ok. Not once, but three times!
And countless times my heels got stuck in drains and small holes on pavements..sampai ada org kena pull my feet *beb..kau kawan sejati*. But I still dont learn my lesson.

So the answer to comfort is....wedges! tk payah org susah tarik kaki ku..and me tripping and falling butt up. HarHar.

However, knowing me. Vanity come first.
In no time, Im back to those killer heels.
Even if I have to suck my tummy and walk in pain.
All in the name of beauty. LOL

So the purpose of this entry is....a big huge ass hint to someone.
Wakakakakaka...
Sayang kau lah..

Niari tdo kul 10 ehk...jgn hilang boyfie lagik ok!! =D

Sweet.Surprise

2007-03-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

Look what came in for me to the office today....*giggle*

THIS!!! (points to pic below)

Surprised I was when I received it.

It came with these too! Pink roses. How sweet. =)

From who you may ask?
I have absolutely no clue.

My bday was like last month?
And I dunno a Zi...Weird.

So to the person who send me the chocs, teddy and roses:

Thank you so much! It would be great if you could have at least leave me your real full name.
At least i can personally thank you for the sweetest gift.
Whatever it is, it DID make my day.
Appreciate it.
Since you know my office number, call me and tell me who you are will ya? *winks*
Oh what a sweetheart!

Ok, back to work for me. With this silly smile on my fat face.

Ladies Night

2007-03-07T15:39:00.000+08:00

View Show Create Your Own

So, twas an impromptu meet up. It was just 5 ladies for the night after a hard day at work and all the big hoo haa about the tremor. I like...=)

The talk of the night was the trip to Bali. A bunch of girls travelling together to an island known for their hot surf dudes ought to be fun huh? Hard Rock they say..? *giggle* We'll see hw the plan goes. Part of me really wanna go but I'm suppose to save up for another Phuket trip with d Bf come July. =(

and yoi-e, you have the power to make me change my mind...so STOP IT you minah! =p

2007-03-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

Let's see...I owe a post of our Phuket Trip.

I'm too lazy to do a full write up.
Not that anybody bother to read anyways.
Great memories and experience.
We are so going back there....=)

More pics?
pardon the uglyness.
Takde masa nk edit2...

Ok..nk tido...!
Nyte ppl...

Shopping.spree!

2007-03-05T21:43:00.000+08:00

Item 1. Winning eleven X
Item 2. Guess Shoulder Bag. (I could have gotten Esprit's - CHEAPER!)
Item 3. Sennheiser HD-435

3 items and i'll be hundreds poorer. This is nt fun!
Oh well, he finally have his hands on that game. And me, that gorgeous brown bag. The other item u may ask? Let's just say..a gift for a dumbfounded boyfriend. =)

Till.Later.Days.Phuket

2007-03-03T21:51:00.001+08:00

So, we're back. Too short but it was nothing but blissful. We're planning for our next trip already. Tee Hee.
Redang in April or back to Phuket in July luv? =p

Will do up a full post tmrw, for now just enjoy the Photo Flick will ya? *winks*

Cool Slideshows

The.wait.is.over!

2007-02-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Bags.packed! Phuket.here.we.come!! Yayness!

2007-02-26T14:24:00.001+08:00

Just to irritate some people...heh.

2 more freaking days to Phuket Baby!!!

Thank.My.Lucky.Star

2007-02-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

I hardly have time to spend time alone and think about my life in general.
What Ive overcome thus far.
My shortfalls and success.

I have never been contented with anything and everything.
I want the best and be amongst the best.
No matter what and how it takes.

A perfectionist. No less.

And so, I woke up this morning and stare at empty space.
Silence everywhere and my thoughts weaved thru past memories and who I am now.

I have never been the best daughter, sister or even partner.
I have had my fair share of disappointing my parents and there were times when I was totally at lost of what I really want to do with my life.

But I'm thankful that mum and dad never gave up on me.
Just look at where I am now.
It might not be a big deal to some.
But I'm proud at where I am now.
And I am certain, this will go a long way.
A perfectionist and striving for the best.
Thats me.

I really have to thank my lucky star.
It has always been a dream of mine to work in the bustling Raffles Place, don corporate wear, meet clients and earn big .
Never have I expected it to be happening so early in my life.
I'm ONLY 22, still completing her studies. But I'm already making it come true.
Not much, but slowly and surely, I'll be there.

I just pray it won't stop here.
I have big dreams and a long way to go.
And I know I have a wonderful family and a lovely partner to support me.
That's all that matters.

Syukur for everything that I have in my life.
For this life is only temporary.
Live it.
Cos one day, its back to HIM.

P/s: I know I promised a picture post, but I cant find my blardy Lumix. Urgh!

4 more days to Phuket!

Friday.Goodness

2007-02-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

So its Friday ehh? Wouldn't it be nice if every work week is this short? How wonderful...

"can i ask you for one thing" He asked
"yeah?"
"tkpelah"
"ape syg?" I probed
"Winning X 11? *silly animation herë*

Mcm nk smack. Step tkpelah konon! =p
He has been bugging me if he can get the game. Me, being the pendengki girlfriend, said NO.
Nt until I get IT. At least I have sumn to entertain myself other than falling asleep watching animated soccer. *sigh*

Dinner at Far East later and shopping! Hurrah.

I love seeing 2s in my bank account. Tk selalu lah ok! Im not a savings person.
HarHar.

I broke my nail. So I cut them all. Short stumpy fingers now. Cute.

I feel like a harcut. Just bcos.

and this entry is becoming rather pointless and random. Oh well......

Thank God its friday!!!!!

5 days to Phuket!!

The.Countdown

2007-02-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

I am counting dwn the days till my feet touch Silkair to Phuket. Yayynesss.

I'll love my pay check this month. Hurrah!! And syukur for the extra rezeki frm The Almighty.
I can nvr be more thankful for the answered prayers.

And so, last minute shoppin next week. And other feminine preparation. *winks to LJ*

Tak boleh tahan. This is by far the longest I have not done anything to IT. Urgh!

Oh, I just realized I have to mind my words in my blog now since I found out I have unwanted readers. Ppl whom I know will judge me just by reading what they see here. Sad. Very Sad.

Anywhooo, tanning still on? =)

6 more days till Phuket!

Am.Back!

2007-02-21T12:20:00.000+08:00

So the Pangkor trip was fab!! =)

Too lazy to do a proper entry. So here goes:

- The resort was nice. Puteri Bayu Resort is its name. And I love the beautiful sea view.

- Mum bought hundred worth of ikan kering/masin and what nots. Surprisingly I managed to get a pretty mini dress and a top for work. And that makes me a happy girl.

- Pangkor is a small island with a history so rich and intriguing. And with pretty amazing sights I must say. Beautiful island.

- In that whole island, there is only 2 geese. How weird.

- Island hopping on Day2. The boat took us to 7 different islands surrounding Pangkor. It was super shiok.

- Disappointed that the water wasnt that great to snorkel but swimming at Monkey Bay was just as nice.

- I really enjoyed the jetski ride! Adrenaline rush is just my cuppa tea. =)

- The food at the resort was super sedap nk mampos.

- Shopping at Kl was cut short. But lunch was satisfying!

- Reached home close to midnight. No massive jam or watever.

- Slept like a pig - an enjoyable holiday and well deserved.

Pictures will be up reaaallll soon. Once I get some frm my cousin.
And i wonder y in hell did I buy that Lumix went Im not even a fan of taking pictures in the first place. Hmmm...and its NOT cheap lor. Damn. Impulsive shopping.
Note to self - MUST take more pictures! <

On a totally different note, I cant wait for Phuket. *skip around*
I must go snorkelling there and D.Bf is coming with me. I do not care whatever reasons he has up his sleeves to escape! =p

7 more days to Phuket!! =D

Later.dayz!

2007-02-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

Off.to.pangkor.peepz! Have.a.great.long.weekend..i.sUre.will!
N.luv, i.miz.u.already. Boo.hoo

St. Valentines.

2007-02-14T12:57:00.001+08:00

Does the novelty of love, or being in love really have to depend on this very day?

Why is it easy to fall in love.
But not the same to stay in love?

Quality over quantity.
Go figure.

So whats my plan for this day?
Off to do my nails and shopping.
With who you might ask?
Myself. =)

Dont get me wrong.
We're still very much in love.
We have our own plans tonight. Tee hee. =p

And luv, I dont need you to go the xtra mile for me today. It all wont matter. The fact remains we're together and we have dreams of our own. That is all I want out of you. To make them come true.

And just for the fun of it, Happy Valentines Day Luv.

I love you every day.

Its.Monday!!

2007-02-12T13:42:00.001+08:00

Lil runt started her journey as a working lady today. I sure hope she'll do the parents proud. =)
Being a staff nurse aint easy..but no matter hw small she might seem and how people judge her by the way she looks, I'm sure my lil baby sister will do just fine. She's one feisty lady and Im proud of her. *kisskiss*

And today, her significant other turned 22! Happy Birthday FaiSSSSssSsal! *throws confetti*
We'll have dinner one of these days with Adek and D.Bf ok? Set!

Another person turned 22 too!! Happy Birthday to the future sis-in-law!
Hahaa...as a lady mature, age is just a number lah kan? But it still is a secret to some.
Sooo 22 it is!
Have a good one sista. =)

February makes me happy.
So many things makes me happy this mth.
Short work week, holiday with fam, more pay, and how can I not mention the much anticipated Phuket trip with D.Bf.
Yayyness.

Speaking of which, Enough of the happy happy, I need to rant.

Phuket trip shorten by a day! Boo Hoo.
All thanks to a last min show the band has.
And talks of cancelling it came up.
I am so gonna be freaking ass pissed!
Cheebs.

So not farnie lah ok.

Grrrr.........

2007-02-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

Can.someone.pls.enlighten.me..?
What.the.heck.they.are.up.to..
And.y.there.is.a.freaking.stage.in.the.middle.of.the.river??
Pfftt...

Her.words.

The new move

Can stop askin already!

Hello again??

The weather

Randomness

So....

Last Night

The Kill

Beautiful Lie

Happy Birthday To You!

The Remedy

Will it ever end?

The things that Irks me Part 2.

freedom of speech

Blast from the past

Here again.

Blardy hell!

I did it.

Lovestoned

Wrecked.

A Rojak entry

Will there be a good news?

More Than Meets The Eye

Dah Update!

My Thoughts

Romantic Fatalism

The time when it starts aching again

I'm Back.

Off.we.go!

" Vacation Starts Tomorrow"

Feeling.Under.The.Weather

When.The.Background.Gone.Missing

Back.To.The.Primitive

I know who won.....

Sweet.Escape

All the wayyyyyy.....

The part when boredom kicks in

Its Done.

Nak tdo larh!

Whats the story now?

Bittersweet

F.U.C.K!

A new lease of life.

Monday.Blues

Mr.Fly

God, talk to me?

Monday.Dont.Come

Come.Take.My.Hand.

The Irony

Urgh!

A Fairytale wedding

She's Next..=)

Love

The long weekend

In Random

300

Heyloo.Again

Utopian.Dream

*screams*

Randomness

weird

Oh what a day

Shoes krazy

Sweet.Surprise

Ladies Night

Shopping.spree!

Till.Later.Days.Phuket

The.wait.is.over!

Thank.My.Lucky.Star

Friday.Goodness

The.Countdown

Am.Back!

Later.dayz!

St. Valentines.

Its.Monday!!

screams