Dear You,

I am half-expecting you to come by and see what I have written and if I'm going to run my mouth and vent my anger and frustration here for all to read.

But I wont. Like you see here, this is my personal thoughts for you to read.

I do know how it feels like to have your name or your loved one at stake.
Trust me, I do.
It is never a good feeling to see someone you love on the line.
Being over-protective comes naturally and with that you don't realize you hurt someone else along the way.

We're both of the same sign and I do know our personality and traits may clash.
My mum used to say, we always argue about things because we're both born under the same sign.
But i beg to differ, I do believe my mum and I get along very well and we do have our moments. More than when we're biting on each other's tails.
Hence you & I, we may not be close, but there were times I see myself in You and I understand perfectly why.
Cos my dear, we're born only days apart despite the age gap.

I do want you to know that I will never jeopardize your loved one. If I do have that hatred and intention, I would have done that a long time ago.
Please do know that I sincerely care for each and everyone in that family and treat them like my own.
I've been thru too much for him and I guess Ive grown numb from all the blows.

Shit happens in life but I believe it could have been avoided.
Me & Him, have nobody to blame but us.
It would have been nice somewhere along the line, people could have ask how we're coping and how everything is going on.
Its only when things go wrong do people care. They start pointing fingers and not a single word of concern was uttered.
But of cos, that how it is.
Thats how life is.
I'm pretty sure you know how it goes.
Afterall, you have so much more life experiences than me.

He have spoken to me about what he intends to do tmrw.
We're putting aside all our pride and ego, with face looking down...we accepted his help.
Thus, adding more to what we have already owe you.

But rest assured, I will personally work to pay off every single cent.
You guys have paid so much back then.
And i still do remember how our relationship soured and tense.
I've seen how things got better and I do want it to remain that way.
So, please let it remain so.
Blood runs thicker than water.
Family ties are sacred and I do hope when I'm finally a part of you guys, we can all close this chapter and move on.
With a better meaning in life and putting away the past.
Insya allah.

So my dear You, I apologize if I got on your nerves that day.
Guess we're both defending that single person we put our everything to.
And a simple thank you won't ever be enough for what you have graciously agreed.
But please do give me all the benefit of your doubt that I will do what I can to settle everthing that is now owing.

I won't bother explaining nor defending myself or him.
There's only 6 of us, no point arguing and making things worse.
Again, thank you for everything.
And I pray for your well-being and mine too.
May God repay your kindness is more ways than one.
=)

With all that being said, I'll put that behind.
And I sure hope you'll be able to do that too.

With love from a "sister",
Ayu