I'm tired of answering the same question.
I dont know if I'm ok for sure.
I guess I have to be.
I don't know how to "talk things out" anymore either.
Cos I don't know what else is there to say.

I suppose I'm not used to being selfish and thinking only for myself.
How can I possibly do that when he is already a big part of my life.
(Be it in a good way or not)
People say you have a choice.
But what if that choice leaves you with leaving the man you love?
Is that really a choice you can make?

He is my future and forever he will be.
I know he is not the best for me but in my eyes and heart he is.
Please dont judge him just because of what he put me through.
It is afterall a choice I made. To stay put right by his side.
Its just that, there is only so much I can take at times.
I'm bound to let it all out when the going gets tough but that doesn't mean I'm giving up.

I do wish my life can be much better.
I do ask HIM why so many time during my sleepless nights.
But I learnt thats not how you should lead your life.
I'm tired of wishing and questioning.
I never do get anything out of it.
But what I know for sure, life has its ups and downs.
And at the end of all this, we'll still be together, fingers intertwined.
We'll then look back and say..."we've made this far"
God Willing.

I cant wait to start work and go back to school.
I'm not sayin Life's good cos I'm not going to live in denial and paint a beautiful picture.
Right now, all I can say is...I'll be fine.