Perhaps I am shallow in the heart and mind.


Perhaps it is true Im not sure of what I want for my future.


Or perhaps, I really dont give a fuck anymore about what you have to say to me cos at the end of it all, its still the same ol hurtful passing remark which you expect me to listen not knowing Ive grown numb.


And perhaps, I am no longer the person you expect me to be. Cos I honestly dont give a damn about expectations no more.


But what I know for sure is Im living the time of my life. No matter the countless debts, the never-ending rumours from ppl who just cant the fuck off my life, the hurtful remarks or whatever that can possibly bring me down any lower.


The fact remains that I cant change no matter how much I want it to work both ways.


Perhaps, should the day come when he finally realize this kiddo isnt The One for him, I'll know for sure I'll be back. But for now, pls let me live the time of my life, no matter the terrible consequences or any hardships I may have to conquer.