letz see...

20th sept

First pay for Da Hubster...=) I must say things are certainly gettin better for us..thank God for dat...! Anywhooo....dinner at Sketches dat day was cancelled..we ended up havin Nooch..had a nice big meal...great food..great service..walked arnd aimlessly after that...i juz dont feel like shopping..tho Rian bugged me to get sumn..he worked his ass off to get dat cash...and juz thinkin of me spending it kinda disgust me a lil bit..furthermore..i noe we need it to pay certain stuff..so yeah...~! oh well..i guess da whole situation of spending ya bfs hard earned money on sumn totally superficial still havent get to me yet...thank god..guess my mumz words still ring in my head..! we went by Carrefour to get our toiletries....which was fun..or maybe it was juz me havin silly future thots..=p and den we head home...a long nice bus ride......a simple date meant for a late anniversary...hahaa...

21 Sept

Kfc for dinner...great tiramisu and sum pastries for desert at home while watching System of A Down on telly.....yummy...and i still whine abt gaining weight...hahaaa..sinful pleasures...like sex! *lol*


22 Sept

*screamz* Lords of Dogtown was awesome!!!! great great movie and casting..great story line..Stacy Peralta is a genious..no doubt..Rian didnt even wanna speak to me thru out the movie..and im not surprised he could relate to it...Everyone whu made it big in this world must have went thru a shyt hole before it all comes together for em i guess.....a lesson learnt....Another long bus ride home for us...i hafta admit..im lovin it..it all comes down to the compnay i have...=)










am.so.luvin.u....<3

am always here for u....
i may not be arnd for u most of the tyme...
but u do noe dat i will always make it a point to be there for u wen u need sumone....

ending it all wont solve anythin...u noe it!
watever ure goin thru now...itz juz wat HE have planned out for u...
be strong...face up to it...and at the end of it all..
u'll look back...and smile...and realized at how silly uve been...

ive nvr see myself as someone wif lotsa frenz...
as a matter of fact...ure da only one i have...
to laugh wif..to smile wif...to joke wif..to cry wif..
ure da only one i noe whu wont go away...
and tyme wont take u away frm me...


be strong now lil runt...
frens come and go..but u noe for sure...
ull always have me...

no matter how shitty ya life gets...
juz remember itz a test frm him....

u promise ull take care yahh....
b gud...
i love u......

I want..................

I thank God for crossing our paths again...after the six years we spent...and sumway..sumhow...we got back together...
Even closer then we have ever been...
All the times we spent...the fun we had...the tears and laughter...the joy and pain...we went thru it all in the spirit of pure love....not as partners...not as simple frens...but id like to say as sisters...
We went way back...from the silly "dont-fren-her" to the times wen we sit and talked and talked and talked over ice-cream and fries...
I remembered feeling a pinch of jealousy during those tymes wen we were in school...seein her wif her bunch of frenz..sharing private jokes and secrets...
Its as if she was taken away from me...that was silly..
Of cos nobody can take her away from me...we were the best of frenz..
But i guess time changes eveything...what we had wasnt strong enough to withstand time...to go against it and stand as strong as we were...
And ive been missing her since..but words mean nuthin without actions..im aware of that...
So...she wont know...She will nvr ever know....my thots...my feelings...the reasons...

i dont live to regret..i dont regret sayin what i said previously...i guess life and fate has its own conniving ways to make things happen...and sumtimes...therez not much u can do to change it...

At this point of time...im juz glad ive got the man i love..whu ive been thru thick and thin together..and of cos my ever so annoying yet irritatingly sweet lil sis...whu have been my pillar of support...tho i noe she wont understand the reasons y i do certain things...
I thank God for keeping them in my life...nuthin can ever change that...not even time...

I lost her...but at the very least....i still have precious memories to take me back...to make me smile...and remember her with.....

Im not sure if she reads my blog...but even if she does..it wont change anythin...things have been said..actions speakz louder den words...but at least..i just wanna say...

You were the best fren i ever had...thank u for the precious memories...i love u..i always have..and nvr once have i taken u for granted and forgotten abt the lil things in life...thank u once again..time can nvr erase memories....




ok..enuff of bein farkin emo...fuck...i cant farkin sleep!!!!