*smile* i read up Runtyz current update....about our Sunday together...and yeahh..she basically just mention my feelings and sentiments about the whole damn thing...

ya noe..i juz dont understand y i even bothered to tag along..i shld have just went to Rianz band meeting and be there for him...but i thot since SHEz been complaining and whining about wer her bezbud have went to and all em shyt..i thot..ok..y not..maybe this is the tyme for me to do sumthin..but i juz dont feel that SHE bothered at all..it takes two to clap..let alone to make a frenship work...we juz meet up and i already feel like im not wanted there...if u dont want my company..den y bother complaining and sending all that shyt on my testimonial?? ridiculous and downryte stupid...itz not all me dammit...u gotta play a part too?? haizz...wat tyme can do......

i felt even worse the moment Rian came to the picture...and maybe Runtyz right..they dont like Rian...but den again...do they even bother to get to noe Rian?? Fuck it...they didnt even give Rian a chance to be frenz...If itz because i havent been meeting u since ive been wif him..girl..u dunno SHYT about the things ive been goin thru with him....so if ure gonna say frenz will always be der whether or not u need them...hahaaa...wer were U wen i needed sumone?? come on girl..dont think about ya god damn feelings and life...ive got feelings too..ive got my own damned life to lead..which u dont even noe a lil shyt about it!!! and MR..i noe wat u said about me to my sis...dat may be a long time ago...but i dun forget...u can hate me all u want...juz bcos im attached..and im spendin lesser tyme wif u guyz...i dun even xpect U out of all ppl to be happy for me! think back wen u were wif dat girl...wer were U??? wer was i??? hahahahaa...itz funny how ppl can forget wat they did to others wen its back in their own fuckin face......

and sooo...watever happened that day really opened up my eyes...how selfish and self centred ppl can be...itz all about them...their needs...their wants...and all they noe is complain and whine...but not even once bothered to do sumthin about it....!

i love Rian...and not even once haf i forgotten about the other lil things in life...i have my own reasons y i always wanna be wif him...and i dont xpect ppl like U to understand it..let alone my own sis...i noe u guys wont...cause the relationships u guys have is far different from what i have wif him....trust me...i am goin thru much more den u ppl...and if u guyz cant be happy for me...even the very least...i dun farkin care...cos even wen it all started...i noe u guys were not happy in the first place..talkin behind my back and shyt...oh puh-less..i aint no kid..i noe watz been goin on...and i noe bezfrenz can always fuck u up...

so ppl..if ure reading this...i dun farkin care anymore...i cant be bothered to make things right...so be it...ya actions speakz louder den words....u didnt even say good bye..u leave without sayin a word...think about it!! so now..imma say it...

goodbye to fuckin frenship...goodbye to YOU!