Curiousity killz the cat....and im da muthafarkin god damn cat!!!!

urghh...sumn urge me to do it...and i did...and sumhow i regret it...!! if itz not for ma damn curiousity..i wldnt haf read all those shytzz..sum thingz are better left unknown...now..lotsa qns are in ma mind...and the weirdest thing of all iz....do i know Rian as much as i think i do?? do u really noe your significant other skin deep?? is he really wat he is wen he'z wit me?? or what i read?? i cldnt believe ma squnting eyes....did he really did what dat person said?? well..yes it was da past..but wat reasons does he haf to lie to me abt his past ryte?? so is dat person merely spreadin shytz arnd da cyber world for whatever god damn pleasure she receives frm it...?? or am i taken for one helluva rollercoster ride all this while??? im scared.....im at lost...im insecure...wat shld i do?? forget i came across all those shytz?? but for godz sake...it hit me hard..was he really in luv wit "B*"?? Did he really do it wit "LG"?? Did he really make me look bad wen he was chattin wit the girlz on MSN?? Did he sae all those thingz to get back at me for what i did in the past?? whats goin on?? whats happenin?? could it be dat all this is the werkz of one person??

urgh....why...diz suckz monkey ass ballz...no..worse den dat...was i da gurl whu hang on to him lyke sum leech?? was i da gurl who kept on calling him?? was i da gurl whu begged him to marry him?? was i da gurl whu kept on askin him for SEX?!! god dammit...NO!!!! ive got ma dignity dammit...watz wif all these ppl??!!!! im betta off alone~!!!!

fark it all...fark this world..fark everythin dat i stand for...dun belong..dun exists..dun give a shyt...dun ever judge me!!!! NOW...FARK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!